[Ky/365 - Project 2010]

Current Song: The All-American Rejects - Move Along.

Woke up at 1:20pm after a morning of off again, on again, and I came down and Mom was looking for Newt's number. Stephen and Nick were in the laundry room working on stuff. I decided to go and have my sandwich which I made last night (Made 2 again, left one for this morning), so I got that out and got some sweet tea. Mom didn't know where his number was, and I said it would have been in her phone. She looked for it but couldn't find it, and I turned her cell on and it would have been the last outgoing call. She said it was Nick's number and not Newt's, so I have no idea, but she went to look for the paper the number was on. It was in her coat pocket, so luckily she had it and is going to call him for us to see what the hell is going on. No one else has called yet. I decided to get on Bethy's laptop, and checked my stuff, and Bethy woke up while I ate and checked stuff. I talked to Steph and after a while we were better from last night... Which is a good thing. Took a few hours but we're good now. Mom checked her voice mail since there were messages. One from Newt, one from Mary Beth. We're supposed to call them both back. Mom called Mary Beth at 1:38pm, with no answer... She got a hold of Newt at 1:40pm, Mom called Newt and his wife, and talked to them for a while about everything... Mary Beth called back at 2pm - Result? Still waiting on the check... She's out of the office Monday and Tuesday, she'll be back Wednesday... Bullshit again right? As always...

I watched Moonlight with Bethy, it's a good show, watch it sometime. At 2:45pm I went in the kitchen and talked to Mom about our options... The Washer or Dryer started going AWOL and Lucifer too off like a bat out of hell. It kept doing this throughout the afternoon as Nick kept running in and out of the laundry room trying to fix it. Stephen and all of us talked for a bit. And as it stands... Mom said the check will take about a week to sign even if Mary Beth gets the email... Which means it might be another two fucking weeks before we move in. When Mom talked to her she said we might end up losing the house because of this long wait. And when Mom talked to Newt's Wife, she said someone else was interested in renting the house, and we might lose it because Newt's just waiting for Mary Beth to pull her fucking weight on getting it signed. I texted Steph, she's pissed about it... Me and Mom talked a bit while Bethy played Guitar Hero, then Stephen played with her for a bit. 3:30pm when Bethy came into the kitchen to get a drink she said she wanted a hug and that she's depressed. I said "You don't even know the half of it", and Mom said "Go ahead big mouth!"... Bethy has a right to know, she didn't want to tell her. I feel she has a right to know... So we told her about them not wanting to wait any longer for the stuff to come through, and now Bethy's upset and depressed over it just like we are... But she deserved to know, so that's that.

Stephen stopped playing Guitar Hero and played on the Wii. I sat in the kitchen still talking to Mom while she did dishes. Then the phone rang. At 3:55pm Mom just got off the phone with Zack, he's my counselor. The new guy when I went to see about getting my voucher. He basically said Newt's Wife Kim got a hold of Katie, and Katie went to talk to Zack. Newt's Wife is going to send the paperwork in today with the tax information for the house. Mom needs to fax some income verification paperwork too... Section 8 is off for the weekend, so we might have some type of idea Monday morning before Mary Beth even calls us. Zack's going to call back Monday, he should have the paperwork from Newt's Wife by then, and they can only start paying the rent after that is received. So once we get that, it's only a matter of time for waiting for Mary Beth to sign her damn check. And if they're willing to wait a week, two weeks, or three weeks for get the check, we can probably start moving in next week. Mom decided to finish washing dishes and then she's going to go find the papers for her and Bethy's income. She's supposed to call Newt later, or he'll call her... By then, he might have everything fixed up with this mess...

I relocated to the living room and sat on the recliner. Bethy decided to play Guitar Hero 2 some more, after I asked her to watch a movie - Pulp Fiction since I downloaded it... She said no, and that she wanted to play, so she did. I had to move to the chair, and she sat in the recliner. She didn't know how to hook the Ps2 back up, so I needed to get up and do it. I talked to Steph online for a bit, and called her at 5:15pm because Mom said we might be going to the store. She wanted to run to the store with Bethy to get some stuff, mainly pudding... I wanted to go, but they left without me and said I could stay here. 5:30pm they went to the store and I talked to Steph for a while as she was working on installing Sim City to play because she was bored. She had to send me some pictures to free up space, these pictures were from Christmas while I spent time at her place and the pet store. She freed up space by zipping them and sending them to me, then she went to play while I went to play Guitar Hero 2. When I was getting off the phone, someone called and Nick had to figure out who it was. Turns out it was Kim - Newt's wife, she said for Mom to call her back when she gets back from the store. At 6:20pm they got back, and Nick said for her to call Kim back, Newt's Wife. Before that though, I helped Mom make wedding soup, I learned how she makes it and can do it myself now too :)... Mom called Newt back at 6:30pm... And basically...

We lost the house, he feels Mary Beth is giving him the run around... So because of that it's taking too long and he won't wait... So we lost the house.

Fuck my fucking life.

I called Steph at 6:45pm and told her, she's pissed too... We have a month to find a place... Well, more appropriately, February 26th. I talked to Mom about it as we finished cooking the Wedding Soup, and Nick had already put the Lasagna in the oven a few hours ago before they left for the store. We had dinner, and me and Mom talked covertly in the kitchen about everything going on... She has a few places she can call, and she plans to go up Monday morning to get a second set of papers with me at Section 8, so we can see other houses and try to find one before February 26th. Steph got her schedule, she's off Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, so she might come over and be with me... Actually that's almost a definite, we just don't know where I'll be. More than likely, now based on these developments, I'll be here with her staying here at Nick's with me... Just so we can bust our asses trying to find another house to finalize. Either way, I hope I see her, I really need her company right now :(.

We ate dinner, Nick ignored Mom and went into the bathroom to get a shower, ignoring her asking him about eating. He's been giving her the cold shoulder since the fight. He's being a real dick about everything, you ask him something and he just goes off into his own little world and walks away mumbling about nonsense... Talk about a troubled old fart. Me and Mom spent the next few hours eating soup, and looking on Craigslist to find some listings that might be appropriate for our needs... Called a few, sent a few emails, here's hoping we get something back from them. Steph and me talked while I did this, she's busy with her friend Allison, and I'm busy sending emails and getting numbers for Mom to call. We spent the next few hours looking for houses, and being depressed about what just happened... Mom didn't want to tell Bethy but finally did at around 9pm. As expect she was pissed about it... I think we should have told her sooner but Mom didn't want to because of what would happen. She just broke down, which I expected her to do... Bethy was playing Guitar Hero 2 while Mom told her, and she kind of kept playing trying to keep it out of her mind until she gave up with it. Shortly after, Mom decided to call Mary Beth on her cellphone, of which she never answers. But guess what kiddies? She fucking answered. Mom planned to leave her a voice mail basically saying thanks but no thanks moron, I'll be there Wednesday to pick up my mail (Because we get our mail shipped there... Because of all the moving we've done, and she keeps it for us. It's good because any Section 8 and housing stuff goes there, and it makes it look like we're in the shelter when we're not)... Unfortunately, she answered, and Mom didn't expect her to. She told her the house fell through, and that we will come there Wednesday to get her mail. And that Newt and his Wife Kim got tired of waiting for everything to finalize. She didn't even say sorry, she just said to come up Wednesday and we'll talk about it then, and that we can't stay here because of Nick and it not being a "safe place"... And that we might be able to get into the Shelter, because it would be safer. Um, hello? You're a fucking retard. We've basically been homeless since April or May of last year, and in that time frame we've been in and out of your office with you constantly saying you'd help us, and you'd put us in the Shelter... And this ans that. Broken promises, and contradictions, and you are definitely not good for the job you have. I want you fired, what's the sense of going up to talk about it Wednesday? You'll just fuck something else in our life up like you have since we met you.

And I'm about certain the reason it took so long to go through was because Mom told her about me being with Kelly, and that she was suicidal, and the reason we brought Kelly up was because of her Uncle... He's on the Shelter's "night church" list. Basically, if you stay in the Shelter, every week at 5pm you go to the Night Church to eat, and sleep, and you go back to the actual Shelter at 7am, then to leave again at 5pm. Her Uncle's church is on that list... And he's also the President of AVAOC - Allegheny Valley's Association Of Churches. So it's almost guaranteed, he had a hand in it taking forever to get the check signed, and if so it's partly Mom's fault for bringing it up. But no, Mary Beth had nothing to say about it, no apology, nothing... Just "I'll see you Wednesday and we can discuss it"... What the fuck is there to discuss? Seriously. If anything it's your lack of doing your fucking job you fucking tool. Some help you are. And you know what's funny? When Mom told Mary Beth she didn't think she would answer... Mary Beth said "Oh, what do you mean Jane? I always answer my cellphone, it's the emergency number!"... Yeah bullshit! You "always" answer your cellphone. Any other time we called, you always ignored it and never answered, we'd have to leave a message and never get anything back. Some emergency number, and I can count more than 8 occasions we were in your office and you got calls and ignored them on both your cellphone and your office phone. Fuck you. I think I'll take Bethy up on that Agnostic thing, it seems to be fitting based on how life is going the past few years... But seriously. Fuck you. I spent some time with Bethy in the living room watching Sugar And Spice, and she was depressed still... As expected. But we talked a little about it, and then the highlight of the night was Nick singing something randomly, which he's been doing off and on all night. But this time while he was singing he just blurted out while yelling - COCK SUCKER!, needless to say while I hate him, that made my night, and I needed that good laugh.

Then the rest of the night pretty much consisted of us huddled up in the kitchen trying to think of a good method of what to do. They got this bright idea that they'll live on a beach, and I can get a one bedroom apartment or house and have Steph move in, and they'll pretty much be Nomads... Like that will fix anything? I have no car, no job, license, and no other method of transportation... Other than buses or Steph, and I'm not about to tell her she has to drive me here and there and everywhere. Fuck that. And I'm not about to make her foot the bill for an apartment until I get on my feet too... That's just wrong, especially with it being my voucher, and me being the one who should be paying for it. The whole situation is just a shot in the ass. I found a bunch of places Mom will call tomorrow, as did she. She spent a good while looking at ads and replying to them by email, only to have to call them tomorrow. She got pretty depressed when she didn't get anything back from anyone on any... And I told her, you need to figure, it's after 10pm, and later. No one in their right mind - If they're NORMAL - Will reply at this hour to anything you send about a house... And guess what? No one did. Hence us calling them tomorrow morning sometime.

I decided to cam with Steph sometime in the midst of all of this, I didn't bother keeping track of time as other things were more important. She was on Audio, and she heard all of the conversation. She can't believe what we're going through... Then Stephen got home with some stuff he went out to buy. Extension Cords, and a Crib for his baby... This is Emily's kid, it turned out to be his, and I forget if I went over that or not. He doesn't want anyone to know, but Nick told Mom, and Mom told us. So naturally, if you tell someone something we always find out. I don't mind it, it's his life to live. He's a nice guy, and he's doing good by everything so that's fine with me, as long as he's happy. He's not like Nick, and that's obvious enough. When he came in he took things out of the boxes and we broke the news to him and he couldn't believe it either. We don't know what to do about any of it, but he said we're more than welcome to stay here, and he'll be damned to throw us out he said... Let alone Nick. Stephen just earned some points with me, and I know he'll get tired of us being here. Especially since, while we're good company, he's not getting much done. He just got back from Iraq, and he wanted to remodel his house a bit and upgrade... He can't do that with us here. And sure, he got new appliances, but he wants to remodel the kitchen and knock a wall out. And he can't do that if we're here.

Nick came in and helped him set up the crib, and shortly after that I had to help him take it upstairs. It was really light, and easy to carry so that wasn't that hard to do. I spent the next bit of tonight in the kitchen with them talking about everything. We talked about a lot of stuff and Nick was pretty much doing his own thing in his bedroom, he'd come out every now and then to talk, but he pretty much kept to himself while Stephen and us talked, not to mention while I talked to Steph on web cam on Bethy's laptop. I had my hair brushed and had to wash my face because my eyes were bugging, and after that I felt a lot better about myself :) Felt good to feel pretty. Since cause... "You look pretty! :)"... If you don't get it, read Steph's blog a while back about our Chinese food extravaganza. Wow, I typed that right and didn't even need to spell check :) Go me! But yeah we talked for a while, then I went up to call Steph because she wanted to go and lay down, she was reading Breaking Dawn for a few hours, and I figured it was time for her to sleep. I went up and we talked for about an hour, and I finally got to cry about things. I just think I'm bringing her down with me :( I don't want her to feel that way... I don't want her to break up with me because of all of this. She assured me she won't, and that the main thing right now is to find another house before the voucher expires on February 26th. That we can work on her moving in later, and that this is the most important thing right now. We're still together, and she said she's not going anywhere. I believe her... I'm still worried though.

Came back down and we talked some more in the kitchen, and had coffee too, yum yum. Then I spent time in the living room playing Guitar Hero 2 with Bethy, and Stephen came in a few times to watch between talking to Mom. I tried out One For The Road, and boy was that a fun one on Expert... Steph, try that sometime, it's under Bonus on Guitar Hero 2. But Stephen eventually decided to go to bed, this was closer to 2:30-3am when he did. He wanted to go to bed around midnight, which is why this is another night I think we talked his ear off. Bethy thought she talked his ear off last night, but I think it was more obvious tonight... Even though he apparently had fun. One thing I didn't mention that he brought up, is last night when his Mom slept over. She got the upstairs bunk beds, but the one mattress that me and Steph laid on the floor originally is the one she uses. Apparently, when she went to bed, she fell asleep on the floor in Stephen's room, and took all the blankets and pillows from my bed with her to use in there. When she was leaving at like 4am-5am this morning, she left and I woke up around 7am and went up to go to bed. When I went up there, I couldn't find my fucking blankets and pillows, so suffice to say I was freezing. I found this sleeping bag that Stephen's kids used when they were here as their blanket. It was in a box next to the bunk beds, and when I went up and laid down on my bunk, I found it in the box and had to pull it out. I used that as my blanket, but I didn't have a pillow, and I spent all night with my arm under my head just like I always do... Using that as a pillow, and Steph always found that amazingly intriguing because it was always uncomfortable for her. Stephen brought that up though, about the thing his Mom did with the blankets and pillows, and said he was sorry, and that when he went upstairs to sleep last night he found her on the floor in his room when he opened his door up. He gave me props though, for using the sleeping bag as a blanket :) He woke up and was worried I was freezing, but then he saw that and was surprised and laughed about it he said. He was sorry though, such a nice guy.

Bethy went to bed at around 3:30am, I had planned to watch Pulp Fiction with her, but she wasn't interested, she just wanted to sleep. She did however see this before she went to sleep and she laughed her ass off, check it out.

http://gamevideos.1up.com/video/id/27787

I spent the next few hours online with Mom in the kitchen, being bored out of our minds trying to find some houses... Hopefully things go better tomorrow. I'll keep you posted as always.

Sleep well and all that jazz.

PS: News about Nick I got from Mom... He really is on Megan's List for a legit reason. Mom said his Ex-wife, Diana, said he'll deny it up and down but she was the one who caught him. She also said in his free time he likes to look for other women... So much for being faithful. And one more thing - Stephen told Mom tonight that Nick doesn't get a pension, it's a lie, and that he was the one supporting Nick while he was in Iraq. Nick said he was getting like SSI or something twice a month, but it wasn't from them... Stephen sent it. Stephen is the one supporting Nick, and has been for a while now. Some life for that old fart huh?... And one more funny thing. He got thrown out of the Marines for being an alcoholic. How's that for a slice of fried gold?